A new day, a new tomorrow

If we might have a second chance
To live the days once more;
And rectify mistakes we made
To even up the scores.

If we might have a second chance
To use the knowledge gained;
Perhaps we might become at last
As fine as God ordained.

But though we can’t, retrace our steps
However stands the score;
Tomorrow brings another chance
For us to try once more.

-Anonymous
(PS: if you know the author of this poem, pls email me so that I can post his/her name.)
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Everybody deserves a second chance, as what the author of this poem would say. Even though we made a mistake today, we can still correct it tomorrow, or in the days to come.

I really like to add more of my insights regarding that poem, but today...my brain is not functioning properly, as if it's in a NUMB state. I can't really put into words, the wonderful ideas in my mind. It just that when I think of something wonderful, suddenly it will be shrouded with black cloud, then vanish....then my head begins to ring...then I can feel a tingling sensation in my head.

Woooootttt!!! Is there something wrong with me? Lack of sleep?? I think not, coz I sleep almost 10hrs a day, but for some instances, I only sleep for 4-6 hrs. Well, whatever is wrong with me I certainly need a break, a vacation for a week or a month. Just to wind up everything I been working for almost 6 years in the company. A visit in the province with my relatives, one week in the beach, and do some other useful stuffs, manage my own small grocery store or even my own Internet Café or a retailing business.

Whatever~~~

~~ciao

Count Your Blessings

Count your blessings instead of crosses,
Count your gain instead of losses,
Count your joys instead of woes,
Count your friends instead of foes,
Count your smiles instead of tears,
Count your courage instead of fears,
Count your full years instead of lean,
Count your kind deeds instead of wealth;
Count on God instead of yourself.

-Anonymous
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Serious, Down, and Future

All those who journey, soon or late,
Must pass within the gardens gate;
Must kneel alone in darkness there;
And battle with some fierce despair,
God pity those who cannot say;
"Not mine but, thine," who only pray;
"Let this cup pass," and cannot see
The purpose in Gethsemane.

-Ella Wheeler Wilcox
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I don't know, I'm just so down today. I don't really feel good about myself, it seems that I don't even know who I am. Confusing as it may seem, but sometimes, I don't seem to know who the real me is, the one living inside of me. I'm just so down and confused today.

To all people who are also down today, may you find the above poem an uplifting one.

Work Ethics should be.

"Work is the true elixir of life. The busiest man is the happiest man. Excellence in any art of profession is attained only by hard work and persistent work."

- Sir Thomas Martin


"Some people dream of worthy accomplishment while others stay awake and do them."

Love is Selfless

February is Valentines, so im gonna post articles about LOVE and stories that will inspire and/or nurture the seed of LOVE in your heart.
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Love delights in giving attention,
Rather than in attracting it,
Love finds in the elements of good,
And builds in it,
Love does not magnify defects;

Love is a flame that warms,
But never burns.

Love knows how to disagree
Without becoming disagreeable;
Love rejoices of the success of others,
Instead of being envious.

-Father James Keller

Kung Hei Fat Choi - Year of the DOG

Aiggght!!!! Since this year is the Chinese Year of the DOG, im gonna post some cute Dog Pics in Honor for the coming Chinese New Year!!!! January 29, 2006.

To all Chinese and Chinese Believers in the whole wide world.

KUNG HEI FAT CHOI!!!!
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Enjoy the PICTURES
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Monday Morning BLUES

Darn...it's monday and Im not having a good day.


I woke up around 8am, not feeling well. Im shivering from the cold I felt, and when I realize it. I am having fever chills. Im having fever on a monday morning......great!!!! What a good day to start the week! I said to myself "I have to drink fever medicine so I can report to work @ 12nn". Just when I was going to stand up to my surprise, I couldn't move a muscle due to the chills, I dont feel like standing up coz I felt dizzy. I wrapped myself with my blanket and made my self warm as possible, seconds later.... I was asleep again.

........................................HOURS LATER........................................

I woke up again, the sun is already up, and my best guess is it's already 12nn coz my uncle is already preparing the food for my nephew's and niece for lunch. I got up, and this time I forced myself to stand up and got to the medicine cabinet and drank a fever medicine. I went back to bed after drinking, I sent SMS to Karl, my immediate supervisor, informing him that I can't attend today in the office. I don't know whether or not he did received it coz I got no reply when I woke up at around four in the afternoon. I should have called but my cellular phone credits wouldn't permit me.

Well, there goes my whole day.....lying all day on the bed sick! When I got up finally, around 4:30 pm still feeling dizzy, and my headache is stinging me. Man...I dont know where I got this fever....it just struck me like a jackpot lottery. Im still in my room, lying. At 5pm I got up and went to the SALA to watch TV. I did not eat breakfast in the morning and I have not eaten LUNCH, surprisingly enough I was not hungry....hmmmmmm weird.

Dinner came, and Im feeling kinda okey. After dinner, I watched the NEWS, when I got bored, I went to my cousin's house, I asked to use the computer to check my Adsense Account if it's doing okey and WHAM!!!! I got no traffic this day! In short, I have not gain any $$$ for my blog. Anyways, I just decided to post my not so good day, and here it is!

After this im gonna, call my girlfriend and talk to her about her day at work(by the way I did inform her that I did not report in the office). Then head straight to bed, sleep early. I just hope that I will have a very good day tomorrow.

~ciao

Tehehehehe....MMORPG + CyberSEX

I got this link from a blog somewhere on the NET through BlogExplosion.com. I found this very funny and it tickled me a lot. This is what you get if you play a lot of MMORPG game mixing it with CyberSEX. Hehehehe....here are some logs of it.
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bloodninja: Baby, I been havin a tough night so treat me nice aight?
BritneySpears14: Aight.
bloodninja: Slip out of those pants baby, yeah.
BritneySpears14: I slip out of my pants, just for you, bloodninja.
bloodninja: Oh yeah, aight. Aight, I put on my robe and wizard hat.
BritneySpears14: Oh, I like to play dress up.
bloodninja: Me too baby.
BritneySpears14: I kiss you softly on your chest.
bloodninja: I cast Lvl. 3 Eroticism. You turn into a real beautiful woman.
BritneySpears14: Hey...
bloodninja: I meditate to regain my mana, before casting Lvl. 8 Cock of the Infinite.
BritneySpears14: Funny I still don't see it.
bloodninja: I spend my mana reserves to cast Mighty Fuck of the Beyondness.
BritneySpears14: You are the worst cyber partner ever. This is ridiculous.
bloodninja: Don't fuck with me bitch, I'm the mightiest sorcerer of the lands.
bloodninja: I steal yo soul and cast Lightning Lvl. 1,000,000 Your body explodes into a fine bloody mist, because you are only a Lvl. 2 Druid.
BritneySpears14: Don't ever message me again you piece of shit.
bloodninja: Robots are trying to drill my brain but my lightning shield inflicts DOA attack, leaving the robots as flaming piles of metal.
bloodninja: King Arthur congratulates me for destroying Dr. Robotnik's evil army of Robot Socialist Republics. The cold war ends. Reagan steals my accomplishments and makes like it was cause of him.
bloodninja: You still there baby? I think it's getting hard now.
bloodninja: Baby?
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BritneySpears14: Ok, are you ready?
eminemBNJA: Aight, yeah I'm ready.
BritneySpears14: I like your music Em... Tee hee.
eminemBNJA: huh huh, yeah, I make it for the ladies.
BritneySpears14: Mmm, we like it a lot. Let me show you.
BritneySpears14: I take off your pants, slowly, and massage your muscular physique.
eminemBNJA: Oh I like that Baby. I put on my robe and wizard hat.
BritneySpears14: What the fuck, I told you not to message me again.
eminemBNJA: Oh shit
BritneySpears14: I swear if you do it one more time I'm gonna report your ISP and say you were sending me kiddie porn you fuck up.
eminemBNJA: Oh shit
eminemBNJA: damn I gotta write down your names or something
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If that didn't made you laugh, seriously, you're not into MMORPG!!! Hahahaha

Here is the complete link
http://www.chrudat.com/the_best_cyber_sex.html

Happy New Year/ Pit Señor / Kung Hei Fat Choi

Aaaaiiit, it's been a while since I put contents in my BLOG. Well, anyways, im going to patch things up in my BLOG, im gonna improved it, buffed it up, and make it look more presentable. Especially now that I have Adsense account! Especially now that I can earn money just by publishing my one heck of a daily life.

Alrighty!!!! Let me have a recap on the past month.

December 2005:(These events is as far as I can remember)

Dec 01: I have no idea where I was during this day...it was a thursday, so basically Im in the office, Im on duty but I have no idea, what I've done during the day. All I remember is we just got our salary, hehehehe.

Dec 02: Hmm....I forgot what I have done on this day either, this day is a Friday so basically office, and hmmm.....I was planning to buy a present for my cousin's birthday on the 3rd. So that was it. After office hours and after eating my dinner, I'd go to my friends Internet Cafe and play some online game there. After a few hours of playing and the Cafe is close, we eat at Rocky's Eatery and satisfy ourselves with the delicious sinigang ang ginaling for a meal! YUMMMMY!!!

Dec 03: Birthday of my cousin, I went home after I went out of the office. I bought 2 Roasted Chicken on the way to celebrate the bday of my cousin, just a small get together in the family. Just as simple as that, wait a minute......am I gonna post what really happened to me on last month??? Hmmm...let me do it this way, im gonna post important events nlng what happened, okey?? OKEY!

Dec 05: I have a dinner date with someone special, we went to Casa Verde, a cozy place to have dinner with. After the dinner we watched a movie in SM entitled "Ang Pagdadalaga ni Maximo Oliveros", after the movie, we went home.


Dec 12: Fiesta of Our Lady of Guadalupe and at the same time, I have someone special again in my life. My Baby Tweety! Her name actually is Lilibeth Flordeliz, and I call her Bing or Liza.

Dec 13: We went out for a dinner in Shakeys Pizza in Fuente, we talked about anything...after the dinner, we went in the Fuente Circle and continued our talked.


Dec 16: Start of Misa de Gallo, weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. But I wasn't able to attend kay giduka pa ko gikan ligo dagat overnyt. :))

Dec 18: (Sunday) Bing invited me in their coop's Christmas Party held at MCWD Auditorium. This day I got to meet her Mother personally. I went to the venue at around 2:30pm and went directly to the employees entrance of the building as she instructed me. The party was held at the 6th floor, as I arrived she greeted me with a sweet smile on her face. I was surprised to see her in dance costume, she looks like a true maranao princess, their group is going to dance a LUZON-VISAYAS-MINDANAO theme, which is also a contest . She is so beautiful and im out words to describe her during that day.

After meeting me in the corridor, we went inside immediately. There I was greeted by a multitude of COOP members, we walk in the side corridor in the auditorium, then she introduced me to her Mom(weeeeeeeeeeeee). I was nervous at first, but when I got to see her Mom and was formally introduced, I feel relaxed and got comfortable with her Mom, immediately. So I was, comfy and enjoying the show. I was excited to see her dance(she is a graceful dancer by the way). At the end of the day, their group won the First Prize of the contest.

Dec 23-24: Cebu Tambayan:10 Grand Eye Ball held in Vano Beach in Marigondon, Opon Cebu. For all the pictures visit this site http://www.geocities.com/ct10geb (click on the PICTURES link). Im gonna add some pictures maybe in a separate post. :P

Dec 25: Merry Christmas to all!!! Happy Holidays!!
In the afternoon, I went out to meet my special someone to spend the rest of the day in their house in Labangon. I went to Jollibee Sto. Nino to wait for them, while waiting, I already ordered something to eat, since it's already 2:30 and I haven't eaten my lunch yet. After a few minutes they arrived together with her Ate May. They ordered additional meal, after eating we fetched a taxi and went straight to thier house in Tisa Labagon in Hillsview Ville.



Dec 27-28: Happy Birthday to Agoy(Lycen) our dear friend in CT:10
The Celebration was held in Villa Teresita in Talisay, most of the guys went there already early in the evening to celebrate with Lycen's family. Fae, a dear friend of Lycen, ask me to buy a birthday cake for Lycen from Goldilocks and gonna pay me later. Bing, went on ahead of me together with the rest of the guys, but as for me, I have to wait for my friend Louie to close the Internet Cafe until 12mn. Together with Vince(Enting), we went to the Bakery and fetched Louie's girlfriend Cheeky, and after that, we went to Ate Yaneps office back of Freeman Office in Manalili Street. After meeting Ate Yaneps, we rode a jeep bound to Tabunok and when we arrived, I immediately got a tricycle cab to Villa Teresita. When we arrived, it was already closed, I called Bing and ask where they are now, She redirected us to the Talisay Plaza. Immediately, hop in back to the tricycle and went to Talisay Plaza, and there we met all the people in the picture above having a great time already, we catched up with them. Had some fun and a little drink til the wee hours in the morning. After that, we took some pictures together. Went home together inside Lycen's multicab, drop-off point, Bakery in Ponce. We said our goodbye's to each other then, went home our separate ways and we took advantage of the cold breeze of December air to sleep.

When I got home, I sent SMS to Bing telling her that I'm home and ready to go to sleep. When she replied, I went to sleep with my heart smiling.

Dec 30: Bing and I together with AJ were supposed to go to San Fernando to visit a friend(Yenyen) who broke up with her BF abroad. The meeting place is E-Mall, outside Goldilocks at 6:30pm. Due to heavy traffic, I arrived at the meeting place at around 6:45pm, but to my surprise nobody was there yet, for I thought I would be late. I tried calling Bing to let her now that I am on the meeting site already and sent SMS to query where she is. Same also for AJ, he's on the way to the meeting place. After a few minutes of waiting, Bing and AJ arrive just a minute after.

We wasted no time and to our feet to go to the Bus Terminal, were we are going to ride a V-HIRE Van on route to San Fernando. We immediately found a half-filled V-HIRE Van, and seated ourselves on the middle section of the Van. I told AJ to inform Yenyen that we are on the way to her house, no answer. I was bothered, I told AJ to contact her in anyway, nobody is answering the telephone on Yenyen's house, it means nobody was there, it also means that Yenyen was not HOME. Minutes later Yenyen replied to the SMS, and told us that SHE is not around and she is somewhere else with friends. Toinks!!! Butangi!!!

We look at each other inside the VAN, and immediately told ourselves to go somewhere else. Sayang! We took a cab and went to Larsian and have dinner there. After that the three of us, went our friend Louie's Internet Cafe, and waited for the reply of Yenyen. We waited till midnight for her reply, but no SMS from Yenyen, so we decided to call it a day. Since we are getting sleepy, we went home, sleep with much less a little frustration because our trip to San Fernando did not push through. Well, there will be a next time.

Dec 31: Preparation for the New Year!!! Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
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Year 2006: Year of the Dog
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Happy New Year!!! Pit Señor!! and Kung Hei Fat Choi!!!!


Im gonna post the happening in January in the next post.

A Letter To the One that God has Prepared For Me

Hi, it's been a while since my last post, more than a month. Well, here is my yet another post. This is from a friends blog. A nice article by the way. Read along....
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I am wondering at this very minute if you are thinking of me, if like me, you are wondering what is taking us so long to find each other. Many times I thought I finally found you only to be disillusioned by the fact that my wait has not yet ended. I get up each morning hoping, dreaming, longing to meet you.

I am thinking of how we will meet, would it be as romantic as the ones I have seen in movies? Or is it possible that I have known you all my life but we have yet to realize that we are meant for each other? Oh how I wish you were here right now because you are the only one who has the answers to all my questions.

Sometimes I ask myself if I have ever really known "love". I do not have the answer to that question either but I believe that, more often than not, we will never really know what love is until we find that right person.... and since I have not found you yet, then maybe I do not really know what love is! You just don't know how often I dream of finally knowing what it feels like to be in your arms. Even at this very moment I am imagining how you will simply sweep me off my feet! Perhaps I would be drawn to you by your smile, or your eyes, or maybe even how you manage to make me laugh by your silly little ways!

I don't really know for sure but I am praying that God will help me recognize you when the right time comes. I think of all the pain that I have gone through in the past and of how much I have cried since the day I began my search. I just wanted you to know that I find my strength in clinging onto my vision of the beautiful life ahead of me --- the life I shall spend with you. In my mind and in my heart I know that you are worth all that pain and sacrifice. After all, the tears have become a part of my life and I believe that they are slowly washing away my flaws so that I would become perfect, not perfect in its truest sense, but perfect --- for YOU! I wonder if you've gone through so much pain as well. I wonder if you've been hurt so many times along the journey.

But my dearest one, please don't ever give up because I am right here... patiently waiting for you! I assure you that when we finally find each other I would slowly heal those wounds by my love. At night, I would look out my window and stare at the beautiful sky, hoping that somehow you are also looking up and wondering about me. I utter a silent prayer and send all my cries to the heavens above thinking that in time they would reach you. And when I feel impatient, I just close my eyes and believe that you are on your way and that you are longing to see me as well. It is funny but when I finally fall asleep, it is still you that I think of, for you are always in my dreams. It seems that, for now, that is the only place where I can hold on to you, long enough to tell you how much I love you. In my dreams you would kiss away my fears and wrap me with your arms of love.

And this, all the more, makes me want to wake up and face the new day ahead with the hope that soon enough, you will no longer be a dream but a reality and once again I am assured that you are worth the wait. And when that time comes, everything will fall into its place, just as I had imagined, just as I had thought and dreamed, just as I had believed it would be! By then, I would simply look back and smile at all that I have gone through, in spite of the pain and amidst the simple joys of life --- and I would be very thankful because they all led me to you!

In the meantime, take care of yourself for me. Hold on to our dream and don't even think of letting go. Believe in your heart that we will find each other no matter what happens. God has planned the course and it is up to us to follow the directions. Don't worry, don't be afraid about getting lost, God saw to it that all the roads, no matter which one you choose to follow, lead to me .

-- Contributed by Alma M. Alvarez
Shared by Joe Gatuslao
Bacolod City, Philippines

Heart Test

From my mail
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As she stood in front of her 5th grade classon the very first day of school, she told the children an untruth. Like most teachers, she looked at her students and said that she loved them all the same. However, that was impossible, because there in the front row, slumped in his seat, was a little boy namedTeddy Stoddard.

Mrs. Thompson had watched Teddy the yearbefore and noticed that he did not play well with the other children, that his clothes were messy and that he constantly needed a bath. In addition, Teddy could be unpleasant. It got to the point where Mrs. Thompsonwould actually take delight in marking his papers with a broad red pen, making bold X'sand then putting a big "F" at the top of his papers. At the school where Mrs. Thompson taught, she was required to review each child's past records and she put Teddy's off until last.However, when she reviewed his file, she was in for a surprise.

Teddy's first grade teacher wrote, "Teddy isa bright child with a ready laugh. He doeshis work neatly and has good manners....he is a joy to be around.."

His second grade teacher wrote, "Teddy is anexcellent student, well liked by his classmates, but he is troubled because his mother has a terminal illness and life at home must be a struggle."

His third grade teacher wrote, "His mother'sdeath has been hard on him. He tries to do his best, but his father doesn't show much interest and his home life will soon affect him if some steps aren't taken."

Teddy's fourth grade teacher wrote, "Teddyis withdrawn and doesn't show much interestin school. He doesn't have many friends andhe sometimes sleeps in class."

By now, Mrs. Thompson realized the problemand she was ashamed of herself. She felt even worse when her students brought herChristmas presents, wrapped in beautiful ribbons and bright paper, except for Teddy's.His present was clumsily wrapped in the ; heavy, brown paper that he got from a grocery bag Mrs. Thompson took pains to open itin the middle of the other presents. Some of the children started to laugh when she found a rhinestone bracelet with some ofthe stones missing, and a bottle that was one-quarter full of perfume.. But she stifledthe children's laughter when she exclaimed how pretty the bracelet was, putting it on,and dabbing some of the perfume on herwrist. Teddy Stoddard stayed after school that day just long enough to say, "Mrs.Thompson, today you smelled just like my Mom used to." After the children left, she cried for at least an hour.

On that very day, she quit teaching reading, writing and arithmetic. Instead, she began to teach children. Mrs. Thompson paid particular attention to Teddy. As she worked with him, his mind seemed to come alive. The more she encouraged him, the faster he responded. By the end of the year, Teddy had become one of the smartest children in the class and, despite her lie that she would love all the children the same, Teddy became one of her "teacher's pets."

A year later, she found a note under her door, from Teddy, telling her that she was still the best teacher he ever had in his whole life.

Six years went by before she got another note from Teddy. He then wrote that he had finished high school, third in his class, and she was still the best teacher he ever had in life.
Four years after that, she got another letter, saying that while things had been tough attimes, he'd stayed in school, had stuck with it, and would soon graduate from college withthe highest of honors. He assured Mrs.Thompson that she was still the best and favorite teacher he had ever had in his whole life.

Then four more years passed and yet another letter came. This time he explained that after he got his bachelor's degree, he decided to goa little further. The letter explained that she was still the best and favorite teacher he ever had. But now his name was a little longer....The letter was signed, Theodore F. Stoddard, MD.

The story does not end there. You see, there was yet another letter that Spring. Teddy said he had met this girl and was going to be married.He explained that his father had died a couple of years ago and he was wondering if Mrs.Thompson might agree to sit at the wedding in the place that was usually reserved for the mother of the groom. Of course, Mrs. Thompson did. And guesswhat? She wore that bracelet, the one with several rhinestones missing. Moreover, she made sure she was wearing the perfume that Teddy remembered his mother wearing on their last Christmas together. They hugged each other, and Dr. Stoddard whispered in Mrs. Thompson's ear, "Thank you Mrs. Thompson for believing in me. Thank you so much for making me feel important and showing me that I could make a difference."

Mrs. Thompson, with tears in her eyes,whispered back. She said, "Teddy, you have it all wrong. You were the one who taughtme that I could make a difference. I didn'tknow how to teach until I met you! "(For those of you who don't know, TeddyStoddard is the Dr. at Iowa Methodist in DesMoines that has the Stoddard Cancer Wing.)Warm someone's heart today. . . pass this along.
I love this story so very much, I cry every timeI read it. Just try to make a difference in someone's life today? tomorrow? just "do it".Random acts of kindness, I think they call it?

Don’t give for me, for now I’m free,

Don’t give for me, for now I’m free,
I’m following the path God laid for me,
I took His hand when I heard Him call,
I turned my back and left it all.

I could not stay another day,
To laugh, to work or play.

Task left undone must stay that way,
I found that place at the close of the day.

If my parting has left a void,
Then fill it with remembered joy,

A love shared, a laugh, a kiss,
Ah, yes, these things, I too, will miss.

Be not burdened with times of sorrow,
I wish you the sunshine of tomorrow,
My life’s been full, I savored much,
Good friends, good times, a loved one’s touch.

Perhaps my time seemed all too brief,
Don’t lengthen it now with undue grief,
Lift up your heart and share with me,
God wanted me now, He set me free.

Breakfast @ Jollibee

Another article in my email that touched my heart, I just want to share it.
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I am a mother of three (ages 14, 12, 3) and have recently completed my college degree.

The last class I had to take was Sociology.

The teacher was absolutely inspiring with the qualities that I wish every human being had been graced with.

Her last project of the term was called "Smile."

The class was asked to go out and smile at three people and document their reactions.

I am a very friendly person and always smile at everyone and say hello anyway, so, I thought this would be a piece of cake, literally.

Soon after we were assigned the project, my husband, youngest son, and I went out to Jollibee's one crisp March morning.

It was just our way of sharing special playtime with our son.

We were standing in line, waiting to be served, when all of a sudden everyone around us began to back away, and then even my husband did.

I did not move an inch... an overwhelming feeling of panic welled up inside of me as I turned to see why they had moved.

As I turned around I smelled a horrible "dirty body" smell, and there standing behind me were two poor homeless men.

As I looked down at the short gentleman, close to me, he was "smiling".

His beautiful sky blue eyes were full of God's Light as he searched for acceptance.

He said, "Good day" as he counted the few coins he had been clutching.

The second man fumbled with his hands as he stood behind his friend. I realized the second man was mentally challenged and the blue-eyed gentleman was his salvation.

I held my tears as I stood there with them.

The young lady at the counter asked him what they wanted.

He said, "Coffee is all Miss" because that was all they could afford. (If they wanted to sit in the restaurant and warm up, they had to buy something. He just wanted to be warm).

Then I really felt it - the compulsion was so great I almost reached out and embraced the little man with the blue eyes.

That is when I noticed all eyes in the restaurant were set on me, judging my every action.

I smiled and asked the young lady behind the counter to give me two more breakfast meals on a separate tray.

I then walked around the corner to the table that the men had chosen as a resting spot. I put the tray on the table and laid my hand on the blue-eyed gentleman's cold hand.

He looked up at me, with tears in his eyes, and said, "Thank you."

I leaned over, began to pat his hand and said, "I did not do this for you. God is here working through me to give you hope."

I started to cry as I walked away to join my husband and son. When I sat down my husband smiled at me and said, "That is why God gave you to me, Honey, to give me hope."

We held hands for a moment and at that time, we knew that only because of the Grace that we had been given were we able to give.

We are not church goers, but we are believers.

That day showed me the pure Light of God's sweet love.

I returned to college, on the last evening of class, with this story in hand.

I turned in "my project" and the instructor read it.

Then she looked up at me and said, "Can I share this?"

I slowly nodded as she got the attention of the class.

She began to read and that is when I knew that we as human beings and being part of God share this need to heal people and to be healed.

In my own way I had touched the people at Jollibee's, my husband, son, instructor, and every soul that shared the classroom on the last night I spent as a college student.

I graduated with one of the biggest lessons I would ever learn: UNCONDITIONAL ACCEPTANCE.

Much love and compassion is sent to each and every person who may read this and learn how to LOVE PEOPLE AND USE THINGS - NOT LOVE THINGS AND USE PEOPLE.
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There you go...touching story isn't it? It's message..........priceless!!!

~ciao

Of letting go...and moving on

I got this article from my mail the other day...and it struck me like a piercing arrow, it hit me hard, but not hard enough to knock me down. Nice article I said...but then again...this might interest some people out there who, up until now, clinging to the past, can't let go and can't move on, still reminiscing the good old days. Read along:
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This is one of the mornings after another sleepless night that I cannot help not ask myself, why didn't I have a good night sleep again? Then I would just joke myself and answer it with, maybe someone's been thinking of me all night....hahaha!

Jokes are always half-meant, a friend said once. And maybe...just maybe, behind that joke, there's this wishful thinking that someone has really been thinking of me. Then the memory of someone from the past would, again, bounce in my head disturb my sanity and make my day half-miserable.

What if (s)he's thinking about me? What if (s)he still loves me? It's just another imagination, I know. Another day of what if's and maybe's.For the ^nth time, I've told myself that when it's over, it's really over! There's no sense turning back or even trying to pick up the pieces again. It's time to move on and face the reality!

When it's over, is it really over? When you decide to let go, do you really succeed in letting go? I just heard the latest song of Sugar Ray a while ago. Here's the few lines that caught my attention: When it's over, That's the time I fall in love again... When it's over, That's the time you're in my heart again... How can you possibly say it's over when you're still in love with the personyou said you were over with already? I guess it's not that easy when the chain of the past locks you in the chest of false hopes and leads you to a place called fantasy.

How pathetic! But, admit it or not, it's true... The hardest part of losing a loved one is to accept the fact that they're gone and might never come back again. There are things that will always remind you of your togetherness...the places you've been, the way you held hands, his favorite food/merienda you used to cook/buy for him/her, expressionsyou used to hear from him/her and songs you've both loved to sing. These are the memories that'd linger on your mind from time to time.

Because you were both in love before(or so you think), it makes you hope for another chance. You begin to believe on what others said that love is lovelier the second time around and the line from Ally McBeal, "whoever said that 'plenty of fish in the sea' thing is lying. Sometimes, there's only one...trust me."

We would desperately believe that what happens in the movies might also happen to us one day. Who didn't like the lines from the movie "Runaway Bride" where Julia Roberts told Richard Gere, "I guarantee that we'll have tough time; I guarantee that in some point, one of us would want to get out; I also guarantee that if I don't ask you to be mine, I'll regret this for the rest of my life, 'coz I know in my heart...you're the only one for me."

We tend to think that the person who left us will come back one day and say those words, or just simple words but would promise forever. Problems may occur every now and then, but we would consider those things as trials to be conquered in order for the relationship to bloom and mature.

Oouucchh! Reality just bit me! More often than not, these romantic movies and mushy love songs only make us long for something we cannot have...and for someone who cannot be ours again. It hurts to admit that we are just pretending. All the while, we already knew the truth but we ignore it. When the damage is done, there's nothing left to do but cry...to mourn for the bitterness in our hearts. Then curse anybody who gets in the way.

I'm scared!!! As long as we still hold on to the past, the chance of meeting someone new may be a bit far off the field. The fear of trusting and falling in love again may also hinder us to grow and move on. We are hesitant to take the risk, afraid that we may get hurt again. Because of the negative thoughts stocked in our brains and in our sub-concious mind, we refuse to go out from our self-made world and deprive ourselves from new opportunities, whether in love affairs or careerwise.

Let's face it! Betrayal can be anywhere and anyone can be a victim. The worst part is when the one we truly, madly and deeply love is the one who will betray us in the end. Then we are left with nothing but a broken heart and wounded pride. Sad... but true.

Reality check please... It can happen to anyone but we shouldn't just take things as it comes. An action must be done. We should take care of ourselves from the hungry wolves in the jungle. It's just a matter of survival. Stand up when you fall.

It's okay to cry as hard and as long as you want to, just make sure that when you stop crying, you won't cry for the same reason anymore.

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Well, what do you think? TRUE? Yes it is true.. it happened to me once, it's not easy but Im glad the storm has passed already and I'm looking at the rainbows and the rays of the sun now.

Letting go is never easy till you find the truth behind the reason of your breakup, for others out there, who are still looking for the reason, seeking the truth behind your lost love, brace yourselves, coz when the truth is finally revealed to you...you may not have enough the courage to face it.
Til next time.

~ciao

Underwater Babies

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Happy Birthday My Blog

Hi,

Welcome to my Blog, it's been a year already that I have created my online journal, though I seldomly update it, but I still love it, and make to a point that I visit and/or update my blog whenever I can.

Since, it's been a year, I would like to greet my BLOG a very happy 1st b-day! HAPPY BIRTHDAY my BLOGGER!!!!

I hope you still have many more blogs to show, and update and many more post to come! Coming from me of course! HAPPY BIRTHDAY BLOGGER.


~more updates to come...

~ciao

Hey!

heyah!

It's been a while, more than a week....I guess since my last post. Well, im still here! ^_^. It's been a very very so so week, last week. I've done a lot of stuff in my life, and I dont know whether is right or wrong.

Anyways.....im gonna update this blog soon, im just gathering my thoughts and emotions. If you're gonna ask me, how am I going with my life? Well, my life goes on....recovering and slowly picking up the pieces and mending back my broken heart. Heheheheh, Im alright!!!

~ciao

Fire! Burn! Blaze!

Hmmm....it's been almost a week, I havent posted much lately due to my emotional battle that rages on my HEART & HEAD.

Where do I start. Just that I thought Im feeling okey and on going recovery from this dillema, comes another barrage of emotional distress....aaaaaarrrrgh. The feeling of being lonely and emptiness inside is killing me from day to day living. I can't stop thinking about her, darn! Am I that really in-love with her? How stupid of me!!! I want to shout aloud aaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!

I'm in emotional distress now, maybe I should accept the facts that she doesnt love me anymore and move on. That's what my TRUE Friends are telling me, move on, take it easy, relax, and enjoy life in a different perspective. Easy for them to say but it's hard, really hard...super hard to phreaking do! In every aspect of life, one remains constant....CHANGE...that's the only thing in this world that is constant. That every good/bad things has an end. That every good you experienced may end up bad and every bad situations you endure makes you a bitter person, but if you learn the lesson well, makes you a better person. You just have to learn the lesson from it.

Though it's hard for me to accept things....im still in DENIAL stage, failing to accept or not wanting to accept the reality presented in front of me. This is so phreaking not true...but it is TRUE! But one thing is certain, after this storm, there is a rainbow waiting for me in the horizon, that there is a light at the end of the tunnel, that after all this......I will become a better person.



"God will never leave you empty, He will replace everything you've lost. If He ask you to put something down, it's because He wants you to pick up something better." - Rose Lynee Y. Sereño


Thank you very much Rose, for being there always. ^_^

hi! hi!

Heya!~

Im just dropping by. Im kinda okey now, though not really like before Im still wounded. The pain is still there it keeps coming back from time to time and it still hurts like h3ll! It's too unbearable sometimes, but life goes on. The Lord must have a reason for all this, and this I must endure till I fully recover from the pain and suffering and be completely healed.

Well, just an update. I still live, my life still goes on. Im just looking at the positive side of this situation, it's a trick actually and it helps~it helps a lot!

Lead me Lord, lead me by the hand

And make me face the rising sun

Comfort me through all the pain that life may bring

There's no other hope that I can lean upon

Lead me Lord Lead me all my life

BLOG Update: postponed

Hey, i promised an update for the week right? Right! But this week's event is way too heavy to post, and the complex event that had happened is kind'a painful for me to remember/type/share it online right now.

It's because that it's too personal, it's too unforgetable, and it's too traumatic. Way way way too traumatic.

I promised someone that I would update my blog for the week, but I'm very sorry to disappoint "YOU", coz there's no update for the week :( too bad really. But it's too painful for me to share it right now.

Maybe, when I can recover from this traumatic event of my life, that's the time I can share/talk about it. In the meantime, I will still be updating my blog occasionally about some other stuff in life, dont worry! :P

Lastly, I would like to quote a line from the movie STAR WARS III: Revenge of the Sith.

"You must train yourself to let go of the one you love"

~ciao