RANDOM

it just struck me, how do you define the word random?

according to http://www.dictionary.com

ran·dom (adj.)

1. Having no specific pattern, purpose, or objective: random movements.
2. Mathematics & Statistics. Of or relating to a type of circumstance or event that is described by a probability distribution.
3. Of or relating to an event in which all outcomes are equally likely, as in the testing of a blood sample for the presence of a substance.
   

Idiom:
at random
Without a governing design, method, or purpose; unsystematically: chose a card at random from the deck.
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From my suddenly opinionated mind, defines the word RANDOM, as
"The absence or lack thereof of consistency of being or state."

then suddenly.....I can think no more..... weird stuff! (x.X)

I cant sleep! x.X

12:36am Fri, May 13, 2005

I decided to write this journal on this waking hour coz I can't sleep. After my work at the office @10pm, I decided to go to the Internet Cafe that I used to play Online Games. I bought a chocolate snack, after about a while when I was finished eating my snack I was feeling kinda bored, and also due to the humid weather(even the airconditioning unit could not withstand the humid climate) I decided to go home and sleep early.

When I got home at around 10:30pm, I went straight to bed, I said "Early to bed, so that early to rise tomorrow". After I change my clothes to a comfortable one, I lied down then started thinking about a few things that's going on in my life, my future, my eternal LOVE to HONEY, thinking about why did she leave me, what was happening in our relationship. After feeling all the pain(in short self-pity). Even though it hurts, Im still consoling myself not to do such act(self-pity) coz of it's destructive nature.

After a while I decided to go to sleep, I position my self comfortably and started to close my eyes to prepare for my sleep. Twenty minutes have past, still I can't sleep, something's bothering me. Im still thinking about our relationship, my future if I work abroad, what will happen to me/to us in the next five years of our lives.

Checking the current time, it's already 11pm, and still I can't sleep. I got up, and sat on the bed instead of lying, something is really bothering me...but I don't know what. Watching the time goes by...I position my self to sleep again. I lied down. After some time, still I can't sleep!! The time is already 11:30pm, I want to sleep but I couldn't. I got up again, this time I went to the fridge and drank a couple glasses of water and told myself. "Maybe that's all I needed to sleep, to drink water"

I went to bed again. I closed my eyes and concentrate on sleeping again. After a few moments...I can feel/sense that it's working coz Im feeling sleepy and drowsy already. Then here it goes again, random thoughts came rushing to my head. I was restless and unable to sleep, no matter how I change my position, still I couldnt sleep. Is something or someone bothering me in my sleep? I don't know, all I know is I want to go to sleep but I can't

Maybe I have a sleeping disorder or maybe I have Insomia? o.0 ?????......naaaaahhhh......maybe.......maybe not! But this is the first time that I was restless and couldnt sleep. What do you think?? No don't think...it's just my personal BLOG!

I am Deviant!

ey, I just published my so called arts in Devian Art...so I am DEVIAN!! I will rule the world.....(evil grin, then evil laughter). me thinks....this only happens in the movies lols..

Anyways....here's the link! Have a feast on my so-called art! :P

I am Deviant

a little piece of art

Nothings much I just got bored yesterday and I decided to scribble using MSPAINT program for windows. I usually draw solitary stuffs like a tree, plant, flower, mountain...whenever im alone/lonely/down/bored? Does that mean something? Well, here it is....just judge for your self, it's my first attempt to publish my so called art. :P~

Random Scribble of the TREE


Finished TREE

Marie, what do you think of the TREE? I know..it's not your type of ART.

Hi...just dropping by!

Hi...im just dropping by.

Actually I'm not feeling alright....I don't know....Im having second thoughts on sharing this ONLINE. Just give me time....maybe through time...I can compose myself again.

Meanwhile, here's a song from Alicia Keys. Nice song.....*sigh*
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If I aint' got you
by Alicia Keys

Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power, yeah
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things
Define what’s withinAnd I’ve been there before
But that life’s a bore
So full of the superficial

Some people want it all
But I don’t want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain’t got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain’t got you, Yeah

Some people search for a fountain
That promises forever young
Some people need three dozen roses
And that’s the only way to prove you love 'em
Hand me the world on a silver platter
And what good would it be
With no one to share
With no one who truly cares for me

Some people want it all
But I don’t want nothing at all
If it aint you baby
If I ain’t got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain’t got you, you, you

Some people want it all
But I don’t want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain’t got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain’t got you, yeah

Some people want it all
But I don’t want nothing at all
If it aint you baby
If I ain’t got you baby

Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain’t got you
If I ain’t got you with me baby

See, nothing in this whole wide world don’t mean a thing
If I ain’t got you with me baby

Welcome Back!

Wow, it's almost a year since I got back from this blog! From some time I have been thinking of updating my BLOG, but....im just plain lazy~there are times that I have forgotten about this blog and just like my OLD blog account.....forgotten to oblivion!

This time it's gonna change...coz Im gonna update this blog from time to time. There are a lot of things I want to discuss here from the moment I sign up from this blog up to the present happening in my life. Well, maybe not all but certainly im gonna publish them all here.

Wish me luck again! for another episode of my life. Thanks to Marie for encouraging me to update my BLOG! :P~