I cant sleep! x.X

12:36am Fri, May 13, 2005

I decided to write this journal on this waking hour coz I can't sleep. After my work at the office @10pm, I decided to go to the Internet Cafe that I used to play Online Games. I bought a chocolate snack, after about a while when I was finished eating my snack I was feeling kinda bored, and also due to the humid weather(even the airconditioning unit could not withstand the humid climate) I decided to go home and sleep early.

When I got home at around 10:30pm, I went straight to bed, I said "Early to bed, so that early to rise tomorrow". After I change my clothes to a comfortable one, I lied down then started thinking about a few things that's going on in my life, my future, my eternal LOVE to HONEY, thinking about why did she leave me, what was happening in our relationship. After feeling all the pain(in short self-pity). Even though it hurts, Im still consoling myself not to do such act(self-pity) coz of it's destructive nature.

After a while I decided to go to sleep, I position my self comfortably and started to close my eyes to prepare for my sleep. Twenty minutes have past, still I can't sleep, something's bothering me. Im still thinking about our relationship, my future if I work abroad, what will happen to me/to us in the next five years of our lives.

Checking the current time, it's already 11pm, and still I can't sleep. I got up, and sat on the bed instead of lying, something is really bothering me...but I don't know what. Watching the time goes by...I position my self to sleep again. I lied down. After some time, still I can't sleep!! The time is already 11:30pm, I want to sleep but I couldn't. I got up again, this time I went to the fridge and drank a couple glasses of water and told myself. "Maybe that's all I needed to sleep, to drink water"

I went to bed again. I closed my eyes and concentrate on sleeping again. After a few moments...I can feel/sense that it's working coz Im feeling sleepy and drowsy already. Then here it goes again, random thoughts came rushing to my head. I was restless and unable to sleep, no matter how I change my position, still I couldnt sleep. Is something or someone bothering me in my sleep? I don't know, all I know is I want to go to sleep but I can't

Maybe I have a sleeping disorder or maybe I have Insomia? o.0 ?????......naaaaahhhh......maybe.......maybe not! But this is the first time that I was restless and couldnt sleep. What do you think?? No don't think...it's just my personal BLOG!