Yup, you've read it right, I have insomnia, and I'm not proud of it. Every night when I sleep, actually I can't sleep because of this sleeping disorder. Normally when I'm in my bed at 11pm-12midnight, I usually watch TV and set the timer to 1 hour to 1hr and 30 minutes(if I'm watching a nice movie), then I'd go to sleep with no problem in less than the specified time in the timer. But lately I have observed, that I can't sleep yet within an hour, so I've set the timer to another 30minutes, then 30 minutes more, day after day within the couple of weeks. Little did I noticed that, I usually been sleeping around two(2) in the morning, later 2:30am, then lately around 3:00am-4:00am.
Wow!! this sleeping disorder is killing me, it's cutting short of my time for sleeping. Before I was hit by insomnia, I used to wake up early in the morning around 6:30-7:00 in the morning, and have more time doing some chores, clean my room, do a little stretching, have a leisurely walk in the town plaza, prepare my clothes for work. But now, my normal waking time is around 10:30am-11:00am in the morning, errr..no more stretching, no more leisurely walks, no more time to arrange/clean my room. Luckily last week, I had to report 12nn in the office so I still have time to prepare my stuff and go to the office, But this week, my schedule had changed, our Operations Manager changed our time from 12nn-9pm to 9:00am- 6:00pm or 10:00am-7:00pm. So waking up late in the morning is not a good Idea anymore coz I'm gonna be late if that's the case.
Last Tuesday, I was late, I woke up almost 11am, and I have to report 10am, waaaaaaaa....I'm so so late! I hurriedly do my chores, took a bath, change to working clothes, and report to the office at around 12:30pm...wow, 2 hours and 30 minutes late. I'm sure I could get a memo for that incident. Last night I went home around 12 midnight, talked to my girlfriend on the phone for 5 minutes and started to relax so that I can sleep. The climate was so humid, I can't sleep, I set my electric fan to medium, so that it would compensate the humidity of the climate. I decided to watch National Geographic Special, it was part of the "Secret Bible Week" - It was about the Novel of Dan Brown The Da Vinci Code, hmmmm....interesting I said, I set the timer to 1hour and 30 minutes. After the show is over, I still couldn't sleep, it was already almost 2:00 in the morning. The timer is almost up, still I don't feel like sleeping. I set the timer again for another hour, I still can't sleep, this sleeping disorder thing is getting on my nerves, I'm getting irritated on the feeling that I can't sleep and thinking that I won't have enough sleep/rest grrrrrr.
It was already 3:00 in the morning, I'm still struggling to make my ass to sleep, *O_o* OMG this is taking toll on me. I'm getting irritated again, I can't relax sleep, I am not comfortable because of the humidity. The TV is still on, I checked the timer, it's almost up, 10 more minutes. I did turn off the TV so that I could sleep, but to no avail, so I set the timer for another 30 minutes, and this time I couldn't care about what's showing on TV, I just want to sleep! I checked the time, it was already 3:30am, in an attempt of struggle, I closed my eyes and after a few minutes....my world went BLANK!!
I woke up early, around 7:30 in the morning, whoa almost 4hrs of sleep, strange enough I'm not drowsy or something, it seems like I slept for more than 8 hours or something, I got up, do some stretching exercises, cleaned and arranged some stuffs in my room, I went out, around 8:30am, took my towel, soap, and toothbrush, so that I can take a fresh shower, and go to the office early. When I got downstairs, my uncle is still awake and drunk, he kept on talking and nagging to everyone he see. I placed my towel and my soap on the side of the drum, then I went outside. My Uncle is a nice guy, a silent type of person and very observant, he just smokes on the corner. But when he's drunk, he nags and talks so much it annoys you. So you might want to avoid him when he is drunk, because if you don't he will talk to you till he is done, and God knows when will he ever stop talking just about anything. So I decided to eat my breakfast at a nearby carenderia, after eating it was almost 9am, I didn't went back inside, coz I know my drunk uncle is still there. So I decided to have a little chat with our neighbor Nang Delia, since my Uncle is still talking/nagging around his drunkenness, I decided to go to my cousin's house and fix the Ragnarok game of my nephew, I took me almost an hour just to finalize the installation and testing of the Ragnarok Private Server. It was 9:45am, I'm going to be late. I hurriedly went inside, and luckily my uncle is already asleep, so I hurriedly took a bath, but when I checked the water on the drum, OMG it's so filthy dirty!!!! *X_x*. How can I take a bath with this water so dirty, I removed the water from the drum, clean it, and fill it again with clean water...and it took me...the whole 15 minutes just to remove the dirty water, clean it up and started filling it in again. I have to wait for another 5-10 minutes just to be able to take a bath. There goes my early wake up call! I'm late again. *o_O*.
I guess there is no use in getting in the office early then, what a great start of my day. Any ways, I decided not to hurry anymore and went on leisurely on getting dressed for office work. I picked my light orange polo, I ironed it, then after that, I casually walk outside, and started my stride to the jeepney stop where I could catch a jeep bound to SM. I checked my watch, it's almost 11am. Well, another hour late, so much for waking up early then.
After I punched in to DTR machine, I went directly to my BOX, and checked my mails, I remembered that I have to upload the remaining pictures from our Medellin Trip to http://www.photobucket.com to which I did, after a few idle musings. I decided to re.configure the other machine for mySQL Database Engine, but still failing to start miserably. I decided to remove the mySQL 5.0 Service on the Windows 2000 Server, and installed a lower version 4 which still not working(maybe the machine needs to be restarted). Hmm....I remembered that the Fedora Core 5 download is done (the 1st ISO image series of 5). I decided to download the remaining four ISO Image, but it would take a while for it to be downloaded, more or less a day for each ISO Image. Hmmm, I thought it would be better to download this using TORRENT, which Fedora Core have a ready link on the site, I downloaded, the torrent file, and ask the permission of my supervisor to install the software call Azureus - a popular Bittorrent client just for the purpose of downloading the remaining ISO Images of Fedora Core 5 + 1 Rescue Disc. I had the go signal, and I queued the torrent file, and started downloading in no time. (If you are wondering what is Fedora Core and why I am so eager to have a copy, it's a Linux Operating System from Redhat Enterprises, the next version of Redhat Linux 9.)
Lunch came, my officemate(Jun) decided to eat lunch outside SM so that we can save, in the carenderia we used to eat, I ate chicken curry + 2 servings of rice(actually it only 1 1/2, I gave the other half to Jun) + 3 Glass of water. After lunch, went back in the office, this time I decided to update my BLOG. I'm having a hard time updating it, coz I'm confuse, errr.....don't really know what to update. I'm jumping from one idea to the other, I guess my mind and idea is not really that cohesive at the moment, then suddenly I focused on one topic, then here is another boring entry to my blog. But of course, there are other things I've done while updating it, like:
Plans for tomorrow:
Lastly let me leave you with a quote from Harry Emerson Fosdick
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“The facts of existence are like so much loose type which can be set up into many meanings. One man leaves these facts in chaotic disarrangement or stets them up into cynical affirmations, and he exists. But another man takes the same facts and by spiritual insight makes them mean glorious things and he lives.”Wow!! this sleeping disorder is killing me, it's cutting short of my time for sleeping. Before I was hit by insomnia, I used to wake up early in the morning around 6:30-7:00 in the morning, and have more time doing some chores, clean my room, do a little stretching, have a leisurely walk in the town plaza, prepare my clothes for work. But now, my normal waking time is around 10:30am-11:00am in the morning, errr..no more stretching, no more leisurely walks, no more time to arrange/clean my room. Luckily last week, I had to report 12nn in the office so I still have time to prepare my stuff and go to the office, But this week, my schedule had changed, our Operations Manager changed our time from 12nn-9pm to 9:00am- 6:00pm or 10:00am-7:00pm. So waking up late in the morning is not a good Idea anymore coz I'm gonna be late if that's the case.
Last Tuesday, I was late, I woke up almost 11am, and I have to report 10am, waaaaaaaa....I'm so so late! I hurriedly do my chores, took a bath, change to working clothes, and report to the office at around 12:30pm...wow, 2 hours and 30 minutes late. I'm sure I could get a memo for that incident. Last night I went home around 12 midnight, talked to my girlfriend on the phone for 5 minutes and started to relax so that I can sleep. The climate was so humid, I can't sleep, I set my electric fan to medium, so that it would compensate the humidity of the climate. I decided to watch National Geographic Special, it was part of the "Secret Bible Week" - It was about the Novel of Dan Brown The Da Vinci Code, hmmmm....interesting I said, I set the timer to 1hour and 30 minutes. After the show is over, I still couldn't sleep, it was already almost 2:00 in the morning. The timer is almost up, still I don't feel like sleeping. I set the timer again for another hour, I still can't sleep, this sleeping disorder thing is getting on my nerves, I'm getting irritated on the feeling that I can't sleep and thinking that I won't have enough sleep/rest grrrrrr.
It was already 3:00 in the morning, I'm still struggling to make my ass to sleep, *O_o* OMG this is taking toll on me. I'm getting irritated again, I can't relax sleep, I am not comfortable because of the humidity. The TV is still on, I checked the timer, it's almost up, 10 more minutes. I did turn off the TV so that I could sleep, but to no avail, so I set the timer for another 30 minutes, and this time I couldn't care about what's showing on TV, I just want to sleep! I checked the time, it was already 3:30am, in an attempt of struggle, I closed my eyes and after a few minutes....my world went BLANK!!
I woke up early, around 7:30 in the morning, whoa almost 4hrs of sleep, strange enough I'm not drowsy or something, it seems like I slept for more than 8 hours or something, I got up, do some stretching exercises, cleaned and arranged some stuffs in my room, I went out, around 8:30am, took my towel, soap, and toothbrush, so that I can take a fresh shower, and go to the office early. When I got downstairs, my uncle is still awake and drunk, he kept on talking and nagging to everyone he see. I placed my towel and my soap on the side of the drum, then I went outside. My Uncle is a nice guy, a silent type of person and very observant, he just smokes on the corner. But when he's drunk, he nags and talks so much it annoys you. So you might want to avoid him when he is drunk, because if you don't he will talk to you till he is done, and God knows when will he ever stop talking just about anything. So I decided to eat my breakfast at a nearby carenderia, after eating it was almost 9am, I didn't went back inside, coz I know my drunk uncle is still there. So I decided to have a little chat with our neighbor Nang Delia, since my Uncle is still talking/nagging around his drunkenness, I decided to go to my cousin's house and fix the Ragnarok game of my nephew, I took me almost an hour just to finalize the installation and testing of the Ragnarok Private Server. It was 9:45am, I'm going to be late. I hurriedly went inside, and luckily my uncle is already asleep, so I hurriedly took a bath, but when I checked the water on the drum, OMG it's so filthy dirty!!!! *X_x*. How can I take a bath with this water so dirty, I removed the water from the drum, clean it, and fill it again with clean water...and it took me...the whole 15 minutes just to remove the dirty water, clean it up and started filling it in again. I have to wait for another 5-10 minutes just to be able to take a bath. There goes my early wake up call! I'm late again. *o_O*.
I guess there is no use in getting in the office early then, what a great start of my day. Any ways, I decided not to hurry anymore and went on leisurely on getting dressed for office work. I picked my light orange polo, I ironed it, then after that, I casually walk outside, and started my stride to the jeepney stop where I could catch a jeep bound to SM. I checked my watch, it's almost 11am. Well, another hour late, so much for waking up early then.
After I punched in to DTR machine, I went directly to my BOX, and checked my mails, I remembered that I have to upload the remaining pictures from our Medellin Trip to http://www.photobucket.com to which I did, after a few idle musings. I decided to re.configure the other machine for mySQL Database Engine, but still failing to start miserably. I decided to remove the mySQL 5.0 Service on the Windows 2000 Server, and installed a lower version 4 which still not working(maybe the machine needs to be restarted). Hmm....I remembered that the Fedora Core 5 download is done (the 1st ISO image series of 5). I decided to download the remaining four ISO Image, but it would take a while for it to be downloaded, more or less a day for each ISO Image. Hmmm, I thought it would be better to download this using TORRENT, which Fedora Core have a ready link on the site, I downloaded, the torrent file, and ask the permission of my supervisor to install the software call Azureus - a popular Bittorrent client just for the purpose of downloading the remaining ISO Images of Fedora Core 5 + 1 Rescue Disc. I had the go signal, and I queued the torrent file, and started downloading in no time. (If you are wondering what is Fedora Core and why I am so eager to have a copy, it's a Linux Operating System from Redhat Enterprises, the next version of Redhat Linux 9.)
Lunch came, my officemate(Jun) decided to eat lunch outside SM so that we can save, in the carenderia we used to eat, I ate chicken curry + 2 servings of rice(actually it only 1 1/2, I gave the other half to Jun) + 3 Glass of water. After lunch, went back in the office, this time I decided to update my BLOG. I'm having a hard time updating it, coz I'm confuse, errr.....don't really know what to update. I'm jumping from one idea to the other, I guess my mind and idea is not really that cohesive at the moment, then suddenly I focused on one topic, then here is another boring entry to my blog. But of course, there are other things I've done while updating it, like:
- I have to check some of the pending grades, hopefully it would be done tomorrow(SATURDAY)
- Answer some phone calls from my previous students
- Recalibrate/reconfigure mySQL from other server
- Reconfigure Mozilla ThunderBird Email client so that SMTP server would sent emails
- Organize my ideas so that I can publish another entry for my BLOG.
- Configure my blogger account so that I can publish entries through emails(not ever having to login to http://www.blogger.com, and create a post then publish).
- Anticipate, anticipate, anticipate for the Fedora Core to finish downloading(by the way it's already done, I'm gonna burn them to a disc tomorrow).
Plans for tomorrow:
- do my super-duper paper works
- prepare class materials for May 8
- update my blog again for another entry
- errr..do whatever necessary to be done in the office.
- after 6pm, I'm going out with my Girlfriend and a friend to attend a dinner (party???) from another friend
- 10-11pm - home home home.
- Fight another episode of my Insomnia attack.
Lastly let me leave you with a quote from Harry Emerson Fosdick
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**errr...this is not the update I've mentioned earlier. ^_v
**errr...this is not the update I've mentioned earlier. ^_v
1 comment:
Unfortunately, sleeping disorders can last for decades if you don't get help. Been there, done that. Try and get some sleep.
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